- Goth taught me that it is okay to do likes just because you like them despite what is currently popular. It's probably the most obvious of these five points, but expressing yourself through your tastes in music, clothing, literature, and other aesthetics is completely healthy and a good thing. It no longer made me feel like an out cast to like old, dark books and dressing in a Romantic, spooky way. It was okay to do things for yourself and love yourself despite being a little (or extremely) different, and for a twelve year old girl, that's a huge relief.
- Interacting with Non-Goths while being a Goth helped me come to terms with the fact that, while some people are made of 100% absolute Suck, I cannot let them control my thoughts, actions, and emotions. If I do submit myself to the whims of everyday people on the street who take issue with my spookiness, I wouldn't be a happy person. With expressing my own interests comes the inevitable crash-course in self defense from narrow-minded and rude people. It's hard not to let their words cut, I know that, but as I've gotten more and more practice with it, I realize that I just do not care. And besides, little old grannies telling me I look like a pretty fairy doll is always good for my self esteem.
- Goth improved my self esteem because it encouraged me to create things. Every thing that I make for myself, whether it be my blogs or poetry or a playlist or a new piece of jewelry, makes me feel proud of myself.When I feel proud of myself, I love myself even more. Without Goth I don't know that I would have had the inspiration or the wide network of suppot for DIY and self expression that makes that kind of inspiration and creation possible.
- Oddly enough, the fact that Goth has almost forced me to meet new people has also been a boon for my self esteem. I can still be rather reluctant to meet new people at first, but when you don't have anyone around you who hasthe same interests at you it's almost necessary that you meet new people. Online and in person, Goth has thrust me into more social situations and friendships than anything else in my life, except, perhaps, school (but that's what I get for having been in three different institutions in the last two years) and the more I enter into the situations, the more confident I've become in myself. Confidence tends to, if not always, bring along it's best mate Self-Love, because if I can go by myself to a strange city to meet other Goths from the internet and pal around at a museum, there's nothing I cannot do.
- Lastly, Goth helped expand my horizons. When I realized, through my connections and involvement in the subculture, what else existed in the world, I was struck with the realization that being a Goth has turned me into a more open-minded person. I'm by no means flawless, I've covered that already, but Goth helped me look for beauty in other places, possible interests in unexpected hidey-holes, and new people which make me feel enlightened.
Has Goth had an impact on your self esteem? How so?